Goals and Inevitable Failure Hye Jee Kim

Why do you do this to me Mr. Logsdon. I can't do goals. Goals=failure=disappointment. But since this is a grade and that's kind of my life I'll do it.

1. By graduation (which is so soon and I'm 108% terrified) I want to:

• Try at NAIMUN
• Catch up on Jane the Virgin
• Do something that requires me being terrified
• I don't know like read Harry Potter for the 38th (yes I'm actually counting) time

So some of you guys know me. For those of you guys who don't I have a very specific comfort zone. So specific it low-key doesn't exist. I stress about everything, can't let little things go, don't sleep well, check infinite campus on average 2 times a day, and I care too damn much. So when I say I want to do something that terrifies me I mean I want to do something that takes my comfort zone and defecates all over it. I don't mean like "typical" terrifying things. I'd be fine if you told me to jump out of a plane or swim with sharks. I'm an adrenaline junkie. I mean not doing my homework one night. Or not studying for a physics test. Or not emailing all of my teachers about one minute detail that I have a minor question about. Hopefully by doing those things I'll realize not of it actually matters as much as I think it does. 

2. By the end of college I want to:

• Figure out what the hell I actually like
• Not be in debt
• See Leo win an Oscar

Since freshman year I've been pretty sure that I'm into International Relations. And I am. I like reading about it, I like learning about it, and I love airplanes. So I figured diplomat is the way to go. But now that I'm thinking more about it, I don't like coming up with my own policies. It's too much responsibility. And I don't want any of it. So now I have to figure out what I want to do and what I actually like. I'm thinking IR + Science would be cool. I'm probs going to do my mentoring on that so we'll see. Hopefully by the end of college I'll figure this all out and have a career path. I need money to live soooooooo.

3. By the time I die I want to:

• Meet Ramin Karimloo
• Read The Hobbit
• Have some sort of family
• See 2100

So I'm an only child. And when I die at age 101 in the year 2100, my parents will most likely be dead. Since I grew up here and not in Korea (the South one if you were wondering) I don't actually know my extended family. When I'm old and gray I want to have some kind of family (maybe a husband and some kids and grand kids and great grand kids, or a bunch of dogs, or a bunch of friends) to keep me company. I'd kind of like to live like a 100 year old version of Chandler from Friends.

To me reading this on graduation day and realizing that I've failed at these goals: Sorry.